Why it’s okay to not have it all figured out
Throughout my life, I have always felt the pressure to ‘have a plan’.
This was pressure that had been building up throughout my time at school, the three years of my undergraduate degree and, to an extent, had continued to build up post University.
There is such a focus placed on having it all figured out and knowing exactly what career you want to go into, but if I’m completely honest, I’m only just starting to figure all that stuff out at 23.
I have always been the type of person who is relatively good at a lot of things (I am aware that sounds super big headed, but just hear me out). My strengths range from people skills, determination, focus and work ethic all the way to dancing and teaching dance to others. Granted, I am not so great at other things such as Science, Maths and Geography, but I have always been good with people, be this talking to them teaching them or dancing alongside them.
This is a really hard skill to categorise into a specific career option.
I spent the majority of my teenage years split between wanting to dance professionally and wanting a more ‘traditional’ job. I then went to University purely because it was what seemed like the route I should be taking (not a great reason to go to Uni I know). Thankfully, I went to the best Uni in the world (slight bias…) and it was only here that I started to figure out exactly what these people skills could do for me.
I say started, because upon graduation I still hadn’t exactly figured it out. I tried my hand in events, continued teaching dance, applied for a teaching programme, dropped out of that and then reapplied to another PGCE programme which I am now completing.
Because I was relatively ok at a lot of things, I always had the fear of ‘what if?’. What if this job isn’t for me? What if I can’t do it and what if I could be happier? The only constant I have ever had is knowing I want to own my own business one day. However, telling people you want to run your own company is quite a daunting task when you don’t have all the details figured out yet.
Fast forward to today and I have started CLMB, a company I don’t think I could be more passionate about if I tried. It all began when I sat down one day and just listed everything I am good at and everything I want to do, combined them into one business plan and here we are. I literally couldn’t be happier. That being said, this took me at least 7 years to figure out!
It sounds cliché I know, but with your career, you will honestly know when it’s what you want to do.
This is the first time I haven’t had the ‘what if’ sensation since I was about 14. Yes, I still worry I am not good enough and yes I read my own blog post on Imposter Syndrome about 50 times a day, but I know wholeheartedly that this is what I want to do. Could I have told you this is what I wanted to do in my careers interview in Sixth Form? Hell no. Could I have even told you on graduation day? Not a chance.
So, what exactly is my point here?
It is absolutely fine to not have it all figured out, no matter your age or current situation. Try not to view these pivotal choices of Uni or Apprenticeship, what course to choose, what A-Levels to pick and what grad job to apply for as end destinations. All that they are, are stepping stones towards your dream, even if you don’t know what that dream is yet.
If I hadn’t of gone to Loughborough Uni, I wouldn’t have had the amazing experiences that turned me into the person I am today. If I hadn’t of done a month in an events company I wouldn’t have known that I didn’t want to work for someone else, and if I had of taken the teaching contract a year ago I would have been working over lockdown and not had the space and clarity to develop CLMB.
Everything happens for a reason, trust me and it is absolutely fine to not have that ‘end goal’ just yet.
Do what you think is right at the time and I promise it will take you to a destination you might not even know you want just yet!
Trust yourself, be open to changes in your path and don’t be afraid to change your mind. Ever.
As always, thanks for reading!