I am currently training to be a Secondary English Teacher with the hope of one day delivering CLMB throughout all schools.
Dear younger Amy,
Honestly, I just want to start this letter by saying stop worrying. I know you will see that and laugh, but trust me, just stop. Everything will be absolutely fine!
I know that you have always been a worrier, and trust me, at 23 years-old you still are one, but it’s pointless because it changes absolutely nothing and everything you’re worried about will all be completely fine in the end.
Try and enjoy school, but please just be yourself. If there is anything I learnt from my time at School it’s that trying to fit in with people is pointless because when you go of to Uni (which you will don’t worry), you will become a completely different person and you will grow into the person you really want to be. So, stop backcombing your hair, stop acting like you’re cooler than you are and just go enjoy your Drama class without trying to be someone you’re not.
When it get’s to the time that you’re picking options and Uni choices, go with your heart, trust me where you end up you will have the best time of your life. Don’t worry about choosing somewhere that is near your friends or has a big city for nightlife, choose the one that the moment you set foot on campus you fall in love. I promise it’s worth it. I know you’ll go through a stage that you consider doing an apprenticeship and that is absolutely fine. Don’t let people invalidate this,
“Just listen to your heart, and do what you want, no one else’s opinions matter.”
Carry on dancing, even when you’re stressed at school, it’s your hobby and you love doing it so don’t give it up, you need a release every now and then no matter how stressed you are. Don’t panic that you don’t know what you want to do, trust me you have about 10 career ideas soon and at 22 you will still feel like you have no idea what you want to do. I promise though just before you turn 23 you will figure it out and you’ll be so excited for the future.
Don’t worry about boys and trying to look pretty. Genuinely in a few years-times you will not care what your year 9 crush thinks of you. You will get your heart broken one day and it will seem like the end of the world but I promise it isn’t, you eventually meet someone who is absolutely incredible and loves you with all his heart.
Finally, my last bit of advice is to talk more. Don’t feel you have to bottle everything up. You have the most incredible family around you who love you no matter what so open up to them more, you don’t have to deal with everything on your own. You will continue to battle with your anxiety, and you will have some really sad times but my biggest bit of advice from being 23 and only just realising this, is please don’t cry in your room or hold it all in. Talk to your Mum, she can help a lot more than you think she can.
I think that’s about it! You have got this, you’re strong, you know your own heart and trust me you have a lot of incredible experiences coming your way!
I can’t wait for you to become the person you are today.
All my love,
Older you x